tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5686548541521253922024-02-07T15:03:53.194-08:00Alcoholics LifeStepping inside the mind of a practicing alcoholic. Learn why they (or you) do what they do from just a "normal" guy suffering from the disease called "alcoholism." An alcoholics every day diary so to speak.Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.comBlogger95125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-3447197851122286392015-11-29T02:45:00.000-08:002015-11-29T02:45:06.670-08:004 years later - Stronger and Still .... Just Here!....I really don't know what to say after a few years. I love that a few people still come across my blog.. I will add to this tomorrow!Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-2584752600632784252012-07-07T02:29:00.001-07:002012-08-05T12:39:21.326-07:00OMG, I'm still alive. Despite myself, AlcoholismHey, strangers... You may have forgotten about me, or may have just left me for dead. Or may just not care. I get all three scenerios. I've been better, been worse, been hopeful, been desolate, been there, been gone. Yep... Been there.<br />
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Yep, I'm drunk right now. What do you want me to say? Let you know how I failed again? Nahhhh, you know that already. Sobriety is kinda lame. I mean really.... Tried it. Somewhat boring to tell you the truth.<br />
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So, let me get this straight. We all get one life. We all agree on that right? At the end of our one life, we die... We still on the same page? Hope so... What gives ANYONE the right to say what is right or wrong in this very finite space that we have? I don't get it... When someone takes a grandiose position on me or how I live it makes me laugh. <br />
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I can smell a rose and taste the flavors behind each petal... You can't do that when your a retard drone. I can lay in grass and stare at the moonlight. Without your judgement? No... Yes, I want acceptance..... why do we all want to be accepted? We just do. <br />
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Without alcohol, I feel dull. Creativity dies. Colors don't seem bright. What am I to do? Walk around in a dull world without bright colors? I can do that, but life isn't fun when I do so :(Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-40906341439048230982011-10-01T00:38:00.000-07:002018-04-08T18:41:05.122-07:00Alcoholism Remedy, Dreams, Reach Your Goal, Structure Your Life<b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Remedy For Alcoholism? Yes! Plan Your Goals and Structure</span></b><br />
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I know I haven't posted in quite awhile. That's a good thing though! For those that have followed this blog understand that I've been a mess and was willfully killing myself. Life is an absolutely amazing journey. If you open up your mind to just a slight possibility you allow "possibility"..<br />
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Is there an easy remedy for alcoholism? Probably not. Definitely not a homeopathic one ;) Can you get your life back in order? Hell "F&*(%$" Yeah. It all relies in your dreams and goals, and if you are willing to restructure your life to meet those goals. <br />
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For me (it's different for each person) I was just sad. I had a horrible job that paid me a shitty amount of dollars every hour to be there. I stayed in this bullshit crap job for years because I had bills to pay. Ex wife and child support wouldn't be understanding if I just said "No, I'm going to try something new that may have better possibilities".<br />
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So your sick and tired of being sick and tired right? Blah, blah, blah you have heard those AA <a href="http://alcoholics-life.blogspot.com/2011/03/ernest-hemingway-quotes-about.html" target="_blank"><span style="color: blue;">quotes</span></a>, but they don't apply to you or the strength of the quote holds no weight anymore. Many people swear by AA and I absolutely love that it has saved so many lives. I just don't get it or the whole concept of the whole deal. So, what helped me?<br />
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Well, I'm not "all better" by any means. About twice a month I'll drink and feel like shit the next day. In comparison to how miserable my life was, this is a victory for me.<br />
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This is what I did to improve my "f'ed" up life....... Decide what you really, really want to do in your life and get your plan together to achieve it. I quit my job. This was the foremost and most important decision I made. When you do this your instantly in a "no help" zone. Your don't get helpful assistance. It's all up to you! Yet, it will bring a smile to your face. Your ready to roll up those sleeves :). Nothing falls in your lap though. Find what makes you passionate and do it till it hurts. You can't fail if you keep trying.<br />
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Many people tell themselves that they can't do a particular task. What if you would say to me that you can't "tread water for 1 minute".. That you aren't a good swimmer and don't have the stamina. I would bet my life that if I took you into the middle of Lake Michigan on a calm day and said that you had to swim for 3 minutes....or else....! You would make it for those 3 minutes! Your wayyyyy stronger than you think you are.<br />
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Well, I should stop rambling.. I have no good answers for anyone. I've drank and ruined many peoples lives. It hurts me when I think about the pain that I have caused. I'm hoping that someone listens to a 20 year "beer drinking veteran" what dreams can mean. They can crush you if you let them sit in the back of your closet. Don't say "next year when the times are right"... F%$* that ... Chase your dream THIS year... You don't have the money to achieve that dream? Bullshit... (you just have to get used to eating peanut butter and jelly for a little while. LOL) Just chase your dream and stop making excuses. Please!! Structure your life, reach your goal, and be happy! What's the worst that could happen? Get depressed and fall into the bottle? Isn't that where you are anyway?<br />
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Remedy for alcoholism? Nah... There's no magic potion. Set goals, structure your life, and reach your dreams. You will be amazed at how your "cravings" will be aligned around your goals. You have to put your mind and heart somewhere. Plain and simple...... If your goal is to get drunk, you will have cravings to do so. If you set goals to reach whatever dream you have, you should aim your vessel towards it. Keep moving forward and never ever straight.Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-6109708965215072752011-08-01T08:43:00.000-07:002018-04-08T19:07:30.922-07:00"The Awakening", Best Inspirational Poem Ever!<div style="text-align: center;">
<b><span style="font-size: x-large;">The Awakening - The Best Inspirational Poem That I Have Ever Read</span></b></div>
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I just had to share this. I am not positive who the author is. Most sites say the author is unknown. I found one site who says the author is Sonny Carroll. It is very inspirational for anyone. I think that alcoholics who may need some hope and inspiration, will appreciate this so I thought I would share it here.<br />
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I was just browsing around a forum on another website and came across this. After the first paragraph I was like, "Whoa, this is good"! Enjoy, and tell me what you think! I need to have this poem framed and put on my wall.... Or my front door so I see it before I ever try to exit the house :)<br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">A time comes in your life when you finally get it . . . When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum,your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon.You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of"happily ever after" must begin with you and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are . . . and that's OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you(or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process a sense of safety & security is born of self-reliance.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process a sense of peace & contentment is born of forgiveness.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look and how much you should weigh, what you should wear and where you should shop and what you should drive, how and where you should live and what you should do for a living, who you should marry and what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children or what you owe your parents.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with and in the process you learn to go with your instincts. You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Your learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You learn that you don't know everything; it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes.You learn that just as people grow and change so it is with love . . . and you learn that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms just to make you happy.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely . . . And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you "stack up." You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK ... and that it is your right to want things and to ask for the things that you want and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love,kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won't settle for less. And, you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his touch . . . and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care of it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play. You learn, that for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve . . . and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help. You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time. FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">And you learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state -- the ego. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed,a long hot shower.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart's desire. And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to as best as you can.</span><br />
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Hello everyone, this has been an interesting week to say the least. By the title of this message you may be wondering where I'm going with this. I'll try to be brief as possible since this is an alcoholism blog, but there is a purpose so hang with me ;)<br />
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I first was given benzodiazepines when I was 17 years old (I'm 45 now) after I couldn't breathe to save my life. The doctors said I had an anxiety attack and gave me benzo's. So what are benzodiazepines? They are sedatives and you may have heard of them as Xanax, Ativan, Lorazepam, Valium, Klonopin (pick your poison) etc..... I was supposed to take them whenever I felt anxiety coming on.. They worked just like magic.<br />
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Benzo's worked so well I was on them for the next 25+ years. So, what's the point? Well, the <a href="http://www.tvshowupdate.com/" target="_blank"><span style="color: blue;">doctors</span></a> (I have been to more dr.'s than I have fingers and toes) told me that they could be addictive and to never abuse them. I never did. I never took more than the recommended dose. They say right on the pill bottle that they are to be used to treat ANXIETY..<br />
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* <span style="color: blue;"><a href="http://www.tvshowupdate.com/category/health-alerts/" target="_blank">Health Alerts</a> </span>You Should Know About...<br />
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<b>So, what do the doctors NOT tell you?</b> Well, your body builds up a tolerance to benzo's and once you reach your tolerance point, you have to increase the dose if you want relief from anxiety. If you don't take more and more they will GIVE you more life damaging symptoms than you could ever imagine.<br />
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For the past 20 years I have suffered from shortness of breath, racing heart, paranoia, anti social tendencies, insomnia, amongst many other side effects. I just thought that I was an outcast from society. Well, why didn't I stop taking them? Well, whenever I would take a pill those horrible those symptoms would go away. I always thought that I just had severe anxiety, which I did and DO. What I didn't know is that the very pills that would make my symptoms go away was also CAUSING them.<br />
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<b>What does this have to do with alcoholism?</b> Funny you should ask. In the past couple of months I have been having such severe anxiety that my little magic benzo's would no longer work. I either had to take double the dosage or suffer horrific side effects. I have reached my current dosage tolerance and am in constant withdrawal. If I would go to the doctor he/she would say that it's anxiety and they would recommend upping the dosage to make the anxiety go away. So, I'm supposed to up my dosage, AGAIN. Why didn't ONE doctor in 21 years ever tell me that it was the benzo's that was causing my severe anxiety? After going to the ER a dozen times thinking I was having a heart attack why didn't ONE doctor tell me it was from the benzos? While I racked up immense medical bills not one of them told me a thing about withdrawal or the symptoms. <br />
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Oh yeah, got off track, what does this have to do with alcoholism? After being on benzos (my magic pill for anxiety) for over two decades I found out that if you drink alcohol, those horrible symptoms also go away. While you are drinking and eventually get drunk you have total relief from the dreaded anxiety that you fear. I self medicated my symptoms with alcohol for many, many years. It helped me breathe, it helped me not have social anxiety, my heart wouldn't race, and I could sleep. I'm not saying benzo's caused my alcoholism, but they sure as hell did play a major part.<br />
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<b>The title of the blog says something about "GABA Receptors". What does this have to do with alcohol or benzos?</b><br />
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Last week after doing some research on the internet about alcohol withdrawal (when I could barely function while in withdrawal) I found out that alcohol attaches to your GABA receptors in your brain the same way that benzos do. So what is GABA? I'm sure as hell no expert, and just researched this last week, so I urge you do your own research, but I'll try to sum it up in laymen's terms. <br />
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You have heard of the "fight or flight" response right? Well, GABA receptors control that "calm" feeling. When you take benzo's (or alcohol) everyday your GABA receptors in your brain gets used to the benzo's or alcohol doing the job. Your GABA receptor stops working. Your "fight or flight" is no longer working. The "calm" no longer works. What you have left is "fight" response. The central nervous system excitability, anxiety, etc... This is what gives heavy drinkers alcohol withdrawal symptoms that can actually be deadly. This is also what gives you benzo withdrawals. Doctors don't tell you this. They will just put you on every anti-depressant known to man, OR up your benzo dosage. "Ching Ching, monthly doctor visit". <br />
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Alcohol withdrawal only lasts a few days, yet it can be life threatening. Benzo withdrawals can last a couple of years, and even longer if you have been taking it for a long time. They say that the withdrawals are worse than heroin! I have taken it for 21 years!! Withdrawal from benzo's can kill you.. Maybe my doctor should have told me that! Yes, I have heard they are addictive, but I never ever ever abused them! I never used them as a recreational drug. They simply took away my anxiety (even though it was the benzo's that caused my anxiety). Where'as alcohol leaves your body relatively quickly, benzo's stay in your brain for a longgggg time, and your GABA receptors have to reteach themselves how to function again so your "fight or flight response" will work again. This process can take a many months, or even years.<br />
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If you only took an aspirin when you got a headache would you ever think that you were abusing a drug? That's how I felt when I took lorazepam (the benzo I've been on for 21 years). I only took it to take away anxiety, like a tylenol pill takes away a headache.<br />
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I'm going to cut this short (ha ha), but I wanted to put this info out there to any alcoholic who also is prescribed benzos. NEVER take them together, and if you haven't been on benzo's for a long time, stop NOW! I promise you that you will regret it if you don't. I now have to slowly taper off the drug, and endure horrible withdrawal. Quitting cold turkey can cause seizure and death. As you taper off the benzo over time withdrawal symptoms may increase to horrific levels.<br />
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P.S. I found out this information simply by searching Google using terms like "benzo withdrawal" and "GABA receptors and benzo/alcohol withdrawal", etc.... <a href="http://www.blogger.com/post-edit.g?blogID=568654854152125392&postID=8075107171364980687"><span style="font-size: large;"><b> </b></span></a><span style="font-size: large;"><b><a href="http://www.benzobuddies.org/forum/">www.benzobuddies.org</a></b></span> is a forum where people suffering from benzo withdrawal like me talk about their horrible symptoms. I strongly recommend checking it out.<br />
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P.S.S. "Hey <a href="http://www.dr-oz-reviews.net/" target="_blank"><span style="color: blue;">Doctors</span></a>! Thanks for the heads up and warning, ASSHOLES!"<br />
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P.S.S.S. I haven't drank in five days :) Haven't started tapering off the benzos yet. Horrible tolerance symptoms thoughPlus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-66705139816640255042011-07-19T00:46:00.000-07:002011-07-19T00:46:39.160-07:00Time's Are Making Changes My FriendsTimes are making changes my friends.<br />
What side of the fence do you reside?<br />
I have been on both, and let me tell ya<br />
The grass is greener on only one side<br />
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I know short post, but I liked it... and it's true... GoodnightPlus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-52870072007035702322011-07-10T00:30:00.000-07:002011-07-10T00:30:11.186-07:00Transitioning Your Life, Alcoholics Routine<div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Transitioning Your Life and Breaking Out Of The Alcoholics Routine</span></b></div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFk2y1gnJfN7aqar7L0J2ClqRFcvCrWlVCfk8xMhe-5QVkv7rcvuP_lIosEBTjhOveNvEfT17lATFE8K5UP41a0qfEbq3zX6PdcG8rvkMqLYbV85BYRdn7Ovjhyphenhyphen7qjJc1mQ-GUbFnqkFq-/s1600/thinking_about_quitting_alcohol.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="quitting and transitioning your life from alcoholism" border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFk2y1gnJfN7aqar7L0J2ClqRFcvCrWlVCfk8xMhe-5QVkv7rcvuP_lIosEBTjhOveNvEfT17lATFE8K5UP41a0qfEbq3zX6PdcG8rvkMqLYbV85BYRdn7Ovjhyphenhyphen7qjJc1mQ-GUbFnqkFq-/s320/thinking_about_quitting_alcohol.jpg" title="quitting and transitioning your life from alcoholism" width="314" /></a></div>I have come to realize that one of the hardest things to do (if you are an alcoholic) is removing yourself from the routine that you have probably done frequently for years. I really don't know how to do this, but it's interesting to me how everything relies on your ability to accomplish this critical task.<br />
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<b>How do you transition your life and break out of the alcoholics routine?</b><br />
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Not really sure. I got drunk tonight. Not really too pleased about it.. It was the same old self destructive routine that I have done again, and again, and again.<br />
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I have been to AA, have read addiction self help books, cried out to God, and have unleashed "Oh poor me" text messages. I've did the drunk facebooking (how embarrassing), been arrested (too many times), and have suffered through the worst hangovers that you could ever imagine.<br />
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<b>How do you make the transition?</b><br />
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I think you need some kind of a goal, and I think that you need some kind of reinforcement from an outside influence. Alcoholics have a chemical addiction that longs to be satisfied. There is no joy during the chemical withdrawal process. That's why I think you need a good support system in place and they need to know that "going to the park" or "going to the movies" may not give you quite the same enjoyment (as a healthy minded sober person) when you have decided not to drink anymore. Mentally and emotionally it will be a roller coaster until your body adjusts to what a "normal healthy" person feels.<br />
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Alcohol, cigarettes, cocaine, heroine, pasta (yes, carbohydrate rich food) , and many other things boost your serotonin levels. When you take away what you are addicted to, your serotonin levels crash. Serotonin levels control your mood. Anti depressants like Prozac work (although with unwanted side effects) by boosting serotonin levels. <br />
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<b>So how do you transition your life? How do you bust out of the alcoholics routine?</b><br />
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I really, really don't know. I've listened to recovering alcoholics, I've been punished by the law, and yet still drink. I think that saying of "Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired" makes a lot of sense. That was pretty much how I felt when I was sick of how cigarettes made me feel. Cigs were so much easier for me to quit because I never really felt joy from them. Alcohol does give me joy from time to time. How do you bust out of the alcoholics routine? I don't know. I'm open to suggestions.Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-83231457345622492702011-06-20T00:03:00.000-07:002011-06-20T00:05:16.860-07:00As The Candle Burns, Burning The Alcoholics Wick<div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">As The Candle Burns</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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How many candles don't even have the opportunities to brighten up someones life or provide warmth to a room?<br />
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It seems to me that alcoholics are like candles and burn their wicks from both ends. They don't appreciate all of the energy that is being lost up in smoke. Billows of smoke that you can't grab, sliding between your fingers. You try to get it back, but it floats away. You can actually see the candle's wick grow smaller in front of your eyes as wax falls to the floor. In vain you try to put out one end of the candle's wick. When you do, you are surprised to see that the other end burns brighter, stronger, and warmer! You let go and drink, allowing the other end to reignite. The candle loses it's glow. The lifespan of the candle's wick shortens. The room is no longer lightened. Soon, it becomes too dark to see, and too cold to breath.<br />
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When you let both ends of the candle burn for too long..... Well, your not left with much light. It's cold.. you need warmth, but there isn't anything left. The candle has been burned. A candle is meant to be burned from one end.... Not two.Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-88666727975711766392011-06-11T00:44:00.000-07:002011-06-11T00:48:32.112-07:00Alcoholics Need To Listen To Their Bodies<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"><b>Alcoholics Don't Listen To their Bodies</b></span></div><br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnzdxG9Nt_lX4l5nlb8bNBwyjNvYh0NFdABnpqvgQGrkxxTsVV6VVzwLV5xHqVxluy_zn2s1JheJ0lb2p0isOQam_Pgh5IJ2eztaMlEuszeAL3Dl17MFXYOuTGw69pQXksF8yzIDE8Kle_/s1600/alcoholics_life.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="alcoholics life" border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnzdxG9Nt_lX4l5nlb8bNBwyjNvYh0NFdABnpqvgQGrkxxTsVV6VVzwLV5xHqVxluy_zn2s1JheJ0lb2p0isOQam_Pgh5IJ2eztaMlEuszeAL3Dl17MFXYOuTGw69pQXksF8yzIDE8Kle_/s1600/alcoholics_life.jpg" title="Alcoholics Life" /></a>If you are an alcoholic, you have put your body through turmoil. You do it again, and again.. Why? Alcoholics don't (but need to) listen to their bodies.<br />
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I'm an alcoholic and have woken up out of breath to the point that I wasn't sure that I could make it to the fridge. I'm to the point where I need to make a stand. I'm at the point where I need to take heed to the words my body has given to me.<br />
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You never know where the precious words may come from. Tonight, I was just sitting at the bar.. Kinda drunk. Someone came up and said "I've never seen anyone drink as much as you and still be "with it" "You drink two pitchers and don't even slur your speech" I responded with "I used to drink four pitchers by myself and would drive!.... I'm doing better now... I walk home, and only drink two pitchers.."<br />
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Then they say "Your kidneys will probably give out soon".. I responded with "Why you say that?" They responded with "They won't have a choice... You will be passed out when your body needs fluids.. Your kidneys will work overtime... You will be oblivious to the turmoil and desperate cries that are going on in your body. You will wake up like it was just another drunken night."<br />
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One day in the near future your liver wont produce the proper bile, you won't get proper fluids to your body. Your fingers will begin to shake...... Your moods will swing..... You will try to fix your ailments by drinking more. It will work..... For a short time... When it no longer works, you will get sick... Very sick..<br />
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Alcoholics out there, listen to your bodies! You will die if you don't! I promise! I'm an alcoholic and struggling with this! I'm not a poster on the wall, and I know what I'm talking about.. I'm "one of you, them, whoever"<br />
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Any words of wisdom would be wonderful! For me, and anyone else struggling out there. When I'm drunk I don't know how to "SEO (search engine optimization) a page. If you like this, or think it may help someone, please forward and link to my site :). Thank You! Love your forever, and ever, and ever!Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-15408172399509636322011-05-31T21:58:00.000-07:002011-05-31T21:58:35.305-07:00Drunk, But Not Sad. Somewhat Happy :)<div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;"> Drunk, But Not Sad... Am I Somewhat Happy?</span></b></div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.kqzyfj.com/7577kjspjr6A99BDAG687BDAEBE?sid=alcoholics+mind+tee&url=http%3A%2F%2Fshop.cafepress.com%2Falcoholics" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="Happy Drunk" border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguJnZLSL1g-VGiPQy0Pjt3ntETiV4R3emd9HYTEnXs5PbhKbXKnH6WPLTFF_Kv__GcFfyfHu4wPvgkfVhw7O7CqjOHJ3tzfwy0ghp4oFrerU7E_VGbH2okjMIliHZki0K9H4NRfPQf737D/s1600/happy_drunk.jpg" title="Happy Drunk" /></a></div>Sorry, that I haven't posted recently. I'm fine, and all is well. I made it through Memorial Day.. I prayed for soldiers lost, and managed to get through the Holiday. Made it through without any bruises, scrapes, embarrassments, or feelings of overwhelming guilt :)<br />
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I've made progress I think. Drinking just to drink is no longer appealing. Waking up and feeling "anticipation" of what the day may bring, has trumped the feeling of "I feel so bad, I need a shot to make my head stop ringing".<br />
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Yes, I have been drinking, but instead of taking it to another level (which I have done countless times), I'm content with having a good nights sleep and waking up without feeling like I've been punched in the face by strangers :)Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-83191153543587063792011-05-14T00:33:00.000-07:002011-05-14T00:33:11.296-07:00Lyrics From Songs I'm Listening To Tonight<h1 style="text-align: center;">Lyrics From Songs I'm Listening To Tonight</h1><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_3wFLo5wAItbOwYxEcxHdt6nYekPfXwjmeOAUOhstGCHRo3bQ521Y2O7jJo4DdoL4MYuo1j26Nri-Zw3L-CKsBwUv1F2dF6SVKWtgb4nZGeD8zLMXng_VHgOiKzcqOjLlU_7KoqpwDX2C/s1600/song_lyrics.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="song lyrics" border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_3wFLo5wAItbOwYxEcxHdt6nYekPfXwjmeOAUOhstGCHRo3bQ521Y2O7jJo4DdoL4MYuo1j26Nri-Zw3L-CKsBwUv1F2dF6SVKWtgb4nZGeD8zLMXng_VHgOiKzcqOjLlU_7KoqpwDX2C/s1600/song_lyrics.jpg" title="song lyrics" /></a></div>I'm going to re-design this mess of a website tomorrow. Tonight I'm going to be drunk and listen to music that makes me happy (at least while I'm drunk). I've been real good about drinking lately, but wow it gets hard. Where is the joy and happiness of this "so called sobriety"?<br />
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I love to listen to songs that make me think. I love a melodic hook, and I love listening to musicians that I can respect. Sometimes I just love listening to a song that just sounds good with very little meaning. For tonight, I'm going to listen to songs and post a line (two lines MAX) from a song that I'm listening to while I drink myself into oblivion.<br />
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"What a drag, too many snags"<br />
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"I want to hear you, I want to see you, I want to relate to you"<br />
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"Say What You Feel"<br />
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"I remember when I was 17"<br />
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"Father said to pick your dreams"<br />
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"Smile Away Your Goodbye"<br />
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"my shadow is the only one that walks beside me"<br />
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"Here comes the pain again"<br />
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"Twenty years has gone so fast"<br />
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Basically, these were just "lines" of the last 7 songs that happened to come on (not my favorite songs. just lyrics froms songs that came on tonight while I'm typing). Every song usually has a lyric that is or can be memorable. Just like a persons spoken words that you hear. <br />
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I think too often people don't listen "to the lyrics" that lie within the song or the spoken message. Usually you can find the hidden meaning behind someones sad eyes. Maybe it's just me who thinks too much. I dunno!Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-56674193751455574642011-05-06T09:49:00.000-07:002011-05-06T09:49:01.679-07:00A Practicing Alcoholics 12 Steps To Destruction Program<div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: large;">A Practicing Alcoholics 12 Steps To Destruction Program</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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Many people are familiar with <a href="http://alcoholics-life.blogspot.com/2011/02/12-step-alcoholics-anonymous-t-shirts.html">Alcoholics Anonymous 12 step program</a> that has helped millions of people to live their lives free from alcoholic day by day. I have been to AA many times but haven't quite been able to grasp the program (As Of Yet!). I was emailed a "12 Steps To Destruction" program that a fellow alcoholic has been following! I feel like I could have written some of the steps myself! lol. I've seen several others like this around the internet. Maybe others can relate as well. I think I should probably write down the "12 step to destruction program" that I've been following and really see how bad a program that it really is!<br />
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<b>1. I decided I could handle alcohol, if other people would just quit trying to run my life.</b><br />
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I have to admit, it has been hard for me to ever think that I am powerless over alcohol. Every time I come across a hardship that was the direct result from alcohol, it was usually someone else's fault! Ya, right.<br />
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<b>2. I firmly believe that there is no greater power than myself, and anyone who says it isn't so is insane.</b><br />
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I have felt this from time to time as well. It's sometimes hard to think that there is some "supreme force" that is in control of everything. The "Everything happens for a reason" is a concept I've never been able to accept. Too many "F'ed" up things happen to too many wonderful people, far too often. <br />
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3<b>. I made a decision to remove my will and my life from God, who didn't understand me anyway.</b><br />
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I haven't ever intentionally decided to remove myself from God. Sometimes I do feel a lil neglected from God however. Doesn't seem like my prayers get answered at times. <br />
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<b>4. I made a searching and thorough moral inventory of everyone I knew, so they couldn't fool me and take advantage.</b><br />
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Can't really relate to all of this one. I have some wonderful people in my life that would love to help me in any way possible. However, as an alcoholic I have been hanging around with a lot of wrong people for most of my life. They don't fool me in any way. I know them for what they are, yet at times I still choose their company.. Doesn't make much sense huh? <br />
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<b>5. I sought these people out and tried to get them to admit to me, by God, the exact nature of their defects of character.</b><br />
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Nah, they don't have to admit their defects to me. They showcase them daily. <br />
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<b>6. I became willing to help these people get rid of their defects of character.</b><br />
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No, I joined them and willingly participated right along with them<br />
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<b>7. I became humble enough to ask these people to remove their shortcomings.</b><br />
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Why would I ever want them to remove their shortcomings? <a href="http://alcoholics-life.blogspot.com/2008/11/finding-excuses-to-drink-alcohol.html">Who would I have to drink with? </a><br />
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<b>8. I made a list of all the people who had harmed me, and waited patiently for a chance to get even with them all.</b><br />
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I've never made out a list, but there's a few that I've thought about :) <br />
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<b>9. I got even with these people whenever possible, except when to do so would get me into trouble also.</b><br />
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If I knew that nothing wouldn't be tracked back to me, I'm ashamed to admit (ok, more than a few) that vengeance would seem gratifying at the time.<br />
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<b>10. I continued to take everybody's inventory and when they were wrong, which was most of the time, promptly made them admit it.</b><br />
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I'd like to think that I don't, but I probably do.<br />
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<b>11. I sought through concentration of my will-power to get God, who didn't understand me anyway, to see that my ideas were best and He ought to give me the power to carry them out.</b><br />
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Yep, I've did this for sure. Many times I wished that God would go along with my plan. It was a really good plan damnit! Apparently not that good. lol<br />
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<b>12. I have maintained my drunkenness for 25 years with these steps, and can thoroughly recommend them to other alcoholics who don't want to lose their hard-earned status as drunks, but wish to be left alone, to practice alcoholism in everything they do, for the rest of their lives.</b><br />
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Pretty good steps to continue drinking recklessly! I've drank for 23 years. Maybe I should write out my own "12 Steps To Destruction" as it pertains to my life. What do you think?Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-39287882912193249422011-05-01T00:43:00.000-07:002018-04-08T18:50:36.787-07:00God? Your Plan Is Flawed - Everything Happens For A Reason?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Everything happens for a reason? Yeah, right...... whatever</span></b><br />
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My fourth friend died last night.. There is no plan. He was a father of a little girl. He was the proud business owner of a trash company. He provided, obeyed the law, and was a kind soul. He died in a head on collision last night. Nobody will ever know "why" he had a head on collision. There were no witnesses....Did someone fall asleep? Was the other driver drunk? Does it really matter? Not really... They are both DEAD! <br />
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<a href="http://alcoholics-life.blogspot.com/2011/06/as-candle-burns-burning-alcoholics-wick.html" target="_blank"><span style="color: blue;">As The Candle Burns - Don't Burn The Candle from Both Ends - An Alcoholics Tale</span></a><br />
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People say "Everything happens for a reason". What is the reason? Why would any entity kill someone or something to prove a point? Somebody out there is going to have to help me with this, because it doesn't make sense to me. Will I be a "everything happens for a reason" example for someone else? Once that "someone else" gets it, what does it matter? They will be dead too shortly...<br />
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There is no point. Shit happens. You will die. I will die. It won't be pleasant. I want to believe in God, but why, and how does he allow death, pain, destruction, and uncertainty about everything? Show up in my life God! I'm asking you! Your plan is flawed. What's your plan exactly? Plagues, disease, and despair during the "revelations" chapter of the Bible? <br />
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If I was God, there wouldn't be pain.. There wouldn't be head on collisions. People's bodies wouldn't be deformed. Cancer wouldn't attack a soul. A human heart wouldn't refuse to work. Everything happens for a reason? Ummm... K.... However you sleep better. the "Plan" is flawed. God, we need to have a meeting! I love you, but your killing me.Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-990826442775141532011-04-27T01:14:00.000-07:002011-04-27T01:14:16.189-07:00Why Is My 14 yr Old Cat Staring At Me?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUvEmdPc1yFFfL21p928S_LTzUQAcmMQnlpHY337AFgIsFpLduLko9FUaSB51lLhYzppCVthRkQ4OHFjiGQ6qRdI2jM62P-sszGasScgY5xUV4npXpT2uCDhbZzKLcIOxcq0T4ASuTJ8Pf/s1600/eternal+embrace.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt=" Eternal Embrace alcoholic pic" border="0" height="243" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUvEmdPc1yFFfL21p928S_LTzUQAcmMQnlpHY337AFgIsFpLduLko9FUaSB51lLhYzppCVthRkQ4OHFjiGQ6qRdI2jM62P-sszGasScgY5xUV4npXpT2uCDhbZzKLcIOxcq0T4ASuTJ8Pf/s320/eternal+embrace.jpg" width="182" /></a><br />
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Why has my 14 (maybe 15) Cat been so concerned with my life? I dunno, but I love her to death for loving me!<br />
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"Why does my 14 year old cat keep staring at me"? She curls her body beside me. Why does she keep staring at me? Is she disappointed in me?<br />
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I don't think that she is disappointed....., but I think I know why some people are!<br />
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I think my old cat has seen the rain falling off the eyelids of someone dear to me. Someone who I may, or may have not have met. Yet, somehow she remains concerned about me.<br />
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I think my old cat see's my tears and is here for just a lil bit longer for a purpose. I'm not sure if she is here to comfort my pain, or be my strength when I feel that I have none. My old cat feels like God, and maybe she is! Who is to say that she isn't? Maybe God is speaking through her?<br />
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What if my cat is GOD? Speaking, or maybe just comforting me? Maybe GOD understands the pain that I feel, and shows me some mercy from time to time. Who knows, but that "Eternal Embrace" pic is freaking awesome, and that's for sure.Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-64501225492733705332011-04-23T00:18:00.000-07:002011-04-23T00:18:07.933-07:00Hey, Listen To me!Considering the fact that I totally know what I'm talking about. LOL.. ha ha,,,, "rolling down the hill laughing", you should still listen to me... I have been everywhere that you should not go! I have made the mistakes that you shouldn't make! I have cried the tears that should have been momentary, but have been drug out. <br />
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I wish the words that came out of my mouth, stung in your ear. I wish the power of a vowel, just a word, would take hold.<br />
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I wish that my fingers would make someone stronger than what my fingers are..Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-28842297396801292602011-04-23T00:01:00.000-07:002011-04-23T00:01:02.005-07:00I am an Alcoholic.. sure.. I'm not a stupid one tho!Where can you go to find smart alcoholics who drink themselves into oblivion, but not lose themselves? I "dunno". Where can you atleast go and drink amongst other losers who have a thought? A thought all to their own?<br />
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I dunno.. When it's quiet....... when......your mind calls to you..... When, you don't want to answer,,,, but you do.... when your brain says no, yet you say "look at my tears" as you accept the program.<br />
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I love... I just don't know. I understand though. I doPlus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-72778935141101088772011-04-09T00:40:00.000-07:002011-04-09T09:31:49.984-07:00What Lies Behind Those Alcoholic Eyes?<div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: large;">What lies behind those alcoholic eyes?</span></b></div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigxaKmhnVbcTx_Q7oahZ5Q35KP2jSHkShJ3FaofqZ6uoZ5wyfDbxo9KvX-gUNQNMO1AcTBbXD7jfm9cV8NyIRkEmgivcNSVBV-iCztElgEW0mvF5lvCGPMeD4ZkT6MqoGgpO21gWtW-cCH/s1600/alcoholic+eyes.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="alcoholic eyes" border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigxaKmhnVbcTx_Q7oahZ5Q35KP2jSHkShJ3FaofqZ6uoZ5wyfDbxo9KvX-gUNQNMO1AcTBbXD7jfm9cV8NyIRkEmgivcNSVBV-iCztElgEW0mvF5lvCGPMeD4ZkT6MqoGgpO21gWtW-cCH/s1600/alcoholic+eyes.jpg" alt="alcoholic poem" /></a></div>You may have seen the sorrow..... You may have noticed the desperation...... You may have thought to yourself "Why does he do this"? You may have spoken to yourself "Such a shame!"<br />
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I say those same words to myself. "Why do I choose to be lonely"? "Why do I choose to be sad"? When I ask myself those questions, there is a pause....... then I ask myself "What lies behind those alcoholic eyes?". My answer is a weary, beaten down attempt to justify my sadness.<br />
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When you look at an alcoholic in the eyes, it's hard to see what is truly in their heart. They are prisoners of a disease that has consumed them. If they don't look this disease straight in the eyes, then... well.... unfortunate things ordinarily happen :( <br />
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Just to maintain on the topic and focus of this blogs title "What Lies Behind Those Alcoholic Eyes"? the answer is a mad desire to step out of the box that has imprisoned them. They want to breathe.. BREATHE..... You have no idea, how much being able to loosen your fingers, stretch your arms, inhale a lil bit of life feels to you. <br />
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What lies behind an alcoholic eyes is a constant wavering thought of "I want to", " I shouldn't", "yes", "no", "just once", "just one more", "I'll....." What lies behind those eyes is a sad struggle to be happy and live a normal life. They (me) want to love, be loved and smile.<br />
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help mePlus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-3890481322782938982011-04-06T00:48:00.000-07:002011-04-06T14:04:28.141-07:00Are You an Alcoholic? Choose To Dream<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>An Alcoholics Dream</b></span></div><br />
Never listen to a soul who says your "dream" is unattainable<br />
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Your a mess.. You can't put down the bottle when everyone else can.. Your weak. No you are not!<br />
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What is easy to some, is not easy to others. You have to realize it will be the hardest thing you have ever done.<br />
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You are not special. People only feel sorry for you for a short period of time.<br />
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You are just as bright as anyone who has ever had a thought.<br />
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You are just as dumb as anyone who has ever had a thought.<br />
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You have things to say that can make a girls heart melt.<br />
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You have words that you can say that will make a mans hand clench.<br />
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You have power to quit.... to start..... to stay..... to dream....<br />
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What do you choose? My choice is to dream. It seems to be the most interesting path to visit.<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7GEFbrhH7OzcqTvU1l5v2DNFLLvLS1gChHyH-8YXJALXdUBLsSghjGivQozQfF0XMDkOAgt14QRCbhGMkA9l5ndbXyqv2k7pV4u9zRYQuojnH5q0B5p1jG-HDvaZcrTaig99mm4fnx3bD/s1600/dreams.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="Alcoholic Dreams" border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7GEFbrhH7OzcqTvU1l5v2DNFLLvLS1gChHyH-8YXJALXdUBLsSghjGivQozQfF0XMDkOAgt14QRCbhGMkA9l5ndbXyqv2k7pV4u9zRYQuojnH5q0B5p1jG-HDvaZcrTaig99mm4fnx3bD/s1600/dreams.jpg" /></a></div>Not sure what that was all about, but It's always a nice release to write something. Thanks for those that listen and read occasionally. I'm trying to get better, and I think that I am working towards that point. I wish I woke up every day thinking in the same mentality... It must to be hard to fathom if you don't understand that statement.. No, I'm not crazy by any means, but an alcoholic addiction will "F" with your brain. <br />
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I won't drink for the next two days. Tomorrow I will want to watch a great movie. I will want to go to a museum. I will want to feed bread to the ducks in the park. I will want to....... be...... just like you.. Then after that... I won't be able to understand you. It's chemistry I guess. Those who say it's not, are just lucky enough to not have to deal with an alcoholic addiction.<br />
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I could ramble on forever with my bs, but I'll stop. Thank you.. I love everyone, and embrace my own shortcomings. I feel like it sucks to be me sometimes, but ya know? I could be a garden gnome.<br />
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Have a dream kids, and chase that very same dream..... Until it is not one anymore.... Until it is your every day life :)<br />
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Related :<br />
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<ul><li><a href="http://digg.com/news/lifestyle/Inside_The_Mind_Of_An_Alcoholic">Inside the Mind of an Alcoholic</a></li>
</ul><ul><li> <a href="http://alcoholics-life.blogspot.com/2011/01/do-you-remember-your-childhood-dreams.html">Do You remember Your Childhood Dreams</a></li>
</ul>Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-27190702770204000342011-04-03T01:03:00.000-07:002011-04-03T01:03:15.830-07:00I'm So Close To Quitting DrinkingI'm not an expert on "quitting drinking" because I never have (on a permanent bases.. Only reprieves.) .. I do know the signs of someone truly wanting to quit an addiction.. I quit smoking on February 6th, 2010..... ( I love and hate that Feb 6) date.. I was sent to prison on Feb 6 (in years prior) and also chose that was my quitting date of smokes years later. <br />
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When I was having a hard time quitting smoking, it was always because my heart wasn't in it. Once, it was there it was EASY! I'm hoping that it will be easy to stop drinking, but I don't think that it will. I love to drink, and I never loved to smoke. I smoked for 20 years, but never did I love a cigarette. Even during the pinnacle of my "smokage"... <br />
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What am I to do? I wont touch a beer for the next two days. I will be craving a beer come Tuesday.... My cravings for a beer will be severe.. I'll be ready to party! Sorry....Sorry. I'll say one more time...., I'm sorry.. Disappointing anyone who has every taken an interest in me, my life, my plight, etc.... you are special to me. Lets get better! :) So close to quitting drinking? Nah. not today...<br />
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Quitting drinking sounds horrible.. Someone, please tell me how this would be a good thing? Alcohols has been my friend and enemy...Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-16906739550190672302011-03-31T00:32:00.000-07:002011-03-31T12:33:50.641-07:00Have You Ever? Drunk Blog<div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Have You Ever?</span></b></div><br />
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Have you ever been in a bar (I'm good at this one!) and feel the pain of people that you don't even know?<br />
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Have you ever taken a moment... A pause.... to really try to relate in your mind to what a stranger maybe experiencing inside their heart? Have you ever stopped to lay down your inner selfish defense system to think.... well..... just to think?<br />
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I apologize to the few people that have taken the time out of their day to read my blog and then I post gibberish. I realize that there is no incentive to read about some drunk. (other than maybe reaffirming your decision not to drink anymore!). I thank some of you that have sent me kind and uplifting messages. I thank everyone who has sent me (in my goofy mind) critical and aggressively cruel messages. They have all been positive in my mind..<br />
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Have you EVER? Maybe just for a moment? Probably....... Ya, me too ;)<br />
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I think that my mind is moving in the right direction.. I think that prayers are being answered. I think that I don't know as much as I think I do sometimes. I think that a sunrise is pretty, but every one that I've seen for years has been when I was drunk and really couldn't appreciate the beauty :) I think, I'm going to lay down and dream of the inner happiness that will fulfill me someday soon :) Thanks friends. G-Nite.Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-72315667712659377652011-03-29T00:22:00.000-07:002011-03-29T00:22:50.175-07:00I Hate The Way I Think! Listen for just a second!Hey, welcome to "Screw up Central"! In case you are new to this merry go round, grab some popcorn. I'm "FREAKING STUPID!"<br />
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Well, I've have been working on my home computer business, and everything was improving each and every day. Slowly but surely... Inch, by inch.... The proper way to grow a business in a healthy manner.... So, what do I do? Instead of being content with the continual upward growth, I try to force the issue when I saw money on the table :(<br />
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Well, I have put in 1000's of hours into this sports website. Slowly but surely, my clicks and sales (and income) were rising every month. Well, I had to revisit what "GREED" gets you... Right after the game that put VCU in the Final Four, I put up a page selling their Final Four gear.. I had the number one listing in Google. Sales were coming in by the second.... So, what did I do? I made more pages, trying to profit on any way possible! I made them for every team left in the tournament. I was raking it in.......... for a moment........ Why in the hell would I be listed #1 in front of ESPN, Fox Sports, Yahoo, or any other huge site? I got greedy.. You know what happened? My site, that i have put in thousands of hours is not even listed now. Got slapped with a penalty for my "tactics". It has crushed me. My dreams, my desires, my hopes, are now ....gone...... I worked soo fucking hard. I chased momentary dollars, like I have chased my booze.. Humbled once again. I was in Google's good graces, until I got cocky and pushed the issue :(<br />
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I hate the way I think. I can't see the big picture. I want it all, and I want it now. I want to smell the roses, lick the roses, pluck the roses, and take a picture with them.<br />
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I dunno, just another setback.. Looks like I have to go back to cleaning toilets and belittling my self once again.... Thats ok...... I think I have that down to an art form anyway. Just listen for a second... I hate the way I think... sometimes.. Sorry for the sadness I caused you... It wasn't intentional.. I think you are the best.. I think that I am the worst. I think that I better go to sleep, cuz I feel like crying right now.Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-90251754398512853112011-03-26T13:25:00.000-07:002018-04-08T18:55:15.714-07:00Why Do Alcoholics Relapse? Why Do They Fall Off The Wagon?<div style="text-align: center;">
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Ok, I'm declaring myself an authority spokesman on this question! NOT! I can only speak from an alcoholics perspective. Maybe I've never been committed to climb aboard the wagon, or never truly wanted to quit so relapse was inevitable. Here are some reason's why I think alcoholics in general often relapse and fall off the wagon.<br />
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<b>They Never Quit For Themselves -</b> Often alcoholics quit for reasons that aren't conducive for long term success. I have quit because of legal consequences in the past. While that is definitely a good reason to quit, because nobody wants to go to jail, their minds and hearts aren't in to a life free from alcohol. If you have ever been to an <a href="http://alcoholics-life.blogspot.com/2011/03/sick-and-tired-alcoholics-anonymous-t.html">AA meeting</a> you probably have seen people having the leader sign a piece of paper verifying that they attended the <a href="http://alcoholics-life.blogspot.com/2011/03/sick-and-tired-alcoholics-anonymous-t.html">Alcoholics Anonymous meeting</a>. I have done this myself. It was a nice "abstinence" break, and it did look good when I presented the paper to the judge, but in the back of my mind I knew that I was going to relapse....... and probably even looked forward to it.<br />
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<b>Alcohol is Everywhere - </b>You can't go to a grocery store, watch television, or to a restaurant without having incredibly easy access to your addiction. On television, it is romanticized and often associated with beautiful and successful people. It's easy to forget that an alcoholics lifestyle isn't that glorious at all.<br />
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<b>Hanging Out With The Wrong People</b> - Alcoholics generally hang out with other people who drink themselves. In the mind of an alcoholic, hanging out with a sober person is like grinding your fingernails down a wall. If your a drunk, you just don't want to hang out with people that are sitting there and looking at you (probably in disgust) judging your poor behavior. Many alcoholics even detest a sobers person judgmental attitude. (yep, that's how we think).<br />
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<b>Stress becomes too much</b> - With many alcoholics, your life is a total mess when you "quit" drinking. Probably a major reason why they fall off the wagon. Their relationships with their family, wife, girlfriend/boyfriend is probably in shamble. Many times the alcoholics significant other is a drunk themeselves. How can you avoid relapse when you live with an alcoholic. Easiest way to temporarily relieve the stress is to take a drink. Ya, I know that drinking only will add to the stress, but that's not how alcoholics think. It's just not. We have shut down part of the brain that see's the long term overall picture. Or at least we have forgot how to use it. Relapse, here we come.<br />
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<b>You get lonely</b> - Well, we are first taught that recovering alcoholics need to hang out with people who don't drink. Well........., that's everyone we know! We never went to the same places, and never had anything in common with sober people. The lifestyle of being sober sounds incredibly dull and lifeless (yes, I know sober people think the same as a drunk's damaging lifestyle). It takes awhile to find enjoyment in things that sober people love! It takes time, and like I mentioned before an alcoholic has shut down part of their brain that can see the overall long term vision of what happiness lies in the future. They can only know what can satisfy them immediately (even though, that is what brings them sadness as well).<br />
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<a href="http://alcoholics-life.blogspot.com/2011/06/as-candle-burns-burning-alcoholics-wick.html" rel="nofollow" target="_blank"><span style="color: blue;">Advice From an Alcoholic on How to NOT Burn the Candle from Both Ends</span></a><br />
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<b>You begin to feel TOO GOOD! : </b>How could this be a reason why people fall off the wagon? How in the world would things becoming TOO GOOD trigger a relapse? I can't remember how many times that I have "quit drinking" that I would start to feel GREAT! I would spring out of bed in the morning. I wasn't feeling shaky, nauseous, lethargic, and tired all day! I was up with the sun and had more things accomplished by noon as what it would take me a week to do when I was drinking.<br />
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Somehow (incredibly insane I know), the first thoughts that would enter my mind when the sun would begin to fall would be "how fun it would be to get drunk right now!" My body feels great, my head is clear.. I'm up for anything! Alcoholics become so used to feeling bad all the time. What is an everyday experience to a sober person, is a shocking new experience to an alcoholic that has recently quit and is "riding the wagon". We spend the majority part of the day just trying to function and feel better.<br />
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When you feel great you want to get out and do things and experience life, but do what? Remember, when I mentioned that alcoholics have forgotten how to use the "long term satisfaction" parts of our brain? Remember that we don't know anybody who doesn't drink (that we want to hang out with at this point)? Remember that sober activities seem boring to alcoholics for quite awhile when they jump on the wagon?<br />
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These are just some assumptions that I came up with. There is a reason why alcoholics relapse, and there is a reason why they fall off the wagon. They don't intentionally want to feel horrible all of the time, hurt everyone that loves them, and wreck their lives in a suicidal fashion. Alcoholics think different. We used different parts of our brain and shut down other areas for so long. Maybe rehabilitation clinics should focus a little more on the way alcoholics think, and a little less on the way we should think.<br />
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Well, for a quick recap for those that aren't aware, here is the situation summed up in a sentence or two. I'm an Alcoholic of 23 years (I'm 38), been on temporary unemployment for 2 months, and supposed to go back to work in 3 days.<br />
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Here is the situation, and I would love advice and comments! I really, really, would! I have been at a job for 4 years, that has never given me a single raise. It's a 10 month a year job (I live in a tourist town that shuts down for a couple months) that pays me 9 bucks an hour. During my layoff, my goal was to make enough money restarting my computer business (I've made extra income off of this for years) to not go back to this dead end job. Well, it has been a success to some degree.. Yet, it hasn't been enough of a success to where I can just quit my "steady, yet shitty" paycheck. The question is, have you ever taken a scary chance by investing in yourself? Should I (history of being a mess at times) go back to this dead end job, or should I work 15 hours a day getting my business profitable enough to be a success?<br />
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I know that if I'm spending 10 hours a day at my deadend job, I will never get past "just getting by".. Yet, it's scary when my computer business right now is only making about half of what I need to get by! BUT, I'm confident that 2 more months of "slave to the grind" work ethic will get me there! I've already made up my mind, but I'm scared as hell. I suffer from alcoholism, and it gets in the way of my goals all too often. I'm risking security, to be a success at doing something that makes me happy. Should you be investing in yourself and taking a chance when you have a history of alcoholism, and screwing up? Well, it should be an interesting journey. I'll make my way to the local library to give updates if I have too! LOL...<br />
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People have cussed me out through email, called me weak, a coward........ basically for having an addiction. For you peeps, suck it! I don't care what you think. Many have given me constructive criticism which I really think about! Thank You! You really help me.<br />
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I will be investing in myself and I will be taking a chance.. Whats the worst thing that could happen? Go back to being a poor ass alcoholic? I'll take my chances. My dead end job doesn't bring any excitement to my soul. My home, self generated business does. When you have passion for something, you have incentive to meet your goal that won't fade in time. Pressure and time. There is nothing that can stop you if you apply pressure, and keep applying pressure for time! Invest in yourself and take a chance. You can never fail if you try. It may not work out, but the only failures are the ones that don't try. Invest in yourself!Plus Size Sports Apparel Review Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13289658839073619554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-568654854152125392.post-9390882316098816172011-03-18T16:57:00.000-07:002011-03-18T17:13:21.228-07:00Alcoholics Anonymous Store - Buy AA Coins, Hats, Merchandise, Tees<div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-size: large;">Alcoholics Anonymous Merchandise Online Store</span></b></div><br />
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