What does it feel like to be an alcoholic? Really? What is the pain? Is their pain? Do you really want to know?
What is the problem that makes alcoholics to become disfunctional? I dunno exactly... I can't tell you exactly.... I can tell you that alcoholism hurts your body, mind, and soul from the inside out. I can tell you that you will make decisions that aren't inside your logical head. I can tell you that if you have a wonderful child that you are fully capable of making them cry. I have done this. It is very sad...
I long to make everything right. I want to say that I'm sorry.. It's a journey.. Being an alcoholic means that you have to wake up, feel the pain, swallow your pride, accept your possible embarrasments, and willing for this to happen again... It's so sad, and it's so embarrasing.
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Have you tried AA? I live in an isolated village in Spain and there are no AA meetings available - the only thing here is bars, bars and more bars . . . but this is where I got sober and I will have 2 years on 17th May. I cannot get to AA meetings but I was desperate so I got the support I needed online and via Skype. I have a blog about my journey in recovery.
www.sober-princess.blogspot.com
I love sobriety - I finally found what I was always looking for at the bottom of a glass. My only regret is that I didn´t get sober years ago. Sobriety is a wonderful thing and is the most important thing in my life - without it there is no life, just hell on earth.
Email me if you like.
Hello,
I came across your blog. My Husband is an alcoholic and will not stop. He has not lived with us for 8 yrs.
I am very close to divorcing him. It is so sad. He could have been a good man if not for the alcohol. We have children and they have been so hurt.
I am glad you havebeen ober. Don't ever give up your sobriety!! It's way too valuble.
God Bless.
Laura
I am curious.. my boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years and he is a RAGING alcoholic and has been all of his life. He was married before me for ten years and has 2 children from his marriage. They got divorced because of his problem. I'm on the verge of leaving the love of my life because he won't stop drinking. I feel like there is something wrong with me that I'm not important enough for him to want to quit and make this work. He says it has nothing to do with me but I have doubts. I don't understand what goes on in his mind. Sometimes he will do and say things that are completely ridiculous and hurtful. I just want to understand what it is that compels him to want to drink.. he knows that he is much better off without it. He just won't stop. I don't know what to think, say, or do anymore.
My alcoholic boyfriend of one in a half years is moving out on Tuesday. His drinking is not your fault, in fact it has nothing to do with you at all, there is also nothing you can do to help him. I've spent all this time and energy not knowing this. Please don't do the same. 2nd he will never change until he is ready and wants to, it can be a very long and disturbing process. I thought I had enough love to make it through all this with him and it's starting to ruin my well being. Alcoholism gets worse, it never gets better till they get help and follow through. I e done everything I can, all I can do now is let him go.
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